You never know where life is going to take you. The last time I posted to my blog (other than my entry to Jess's Orange Peel Quilt-Along) was just a few days after my family 4th of July Celebration. Even my header shows fireworks surrounding my little pink house. Life seemed "normal" then. But, since then, things have happened in my life that have just left me reeling.
My sister-in-law, Kathy's dear mother had died in the spring and I felt her grief since Eva had become a big part of our lives and our traditional 4th of July and Christmas celebrations. I know now that I didn't fully realize the extent of Kathy's grief until August 11, 2014 when the first man that I ever loved passed away. My Daddy. Life has been so difficult with him gone and I had so many questions for God. All the whys just didn't seem to get answered.Then 3 days before Christmas, on December 22, 2014, the most horrible tragedy happened. My nephew found his son, my 17 year old dear great nephew dead. A few days later, on December 29th, our friend Bobby called to tell us that his wife was on life-support after having surgery and was not expected to ever get better. A week later, our life-long friend died. On top of grieving for Eva (Kathy's Mom), now I had Daddy and and a dear, dear nephew, plus my friend to add to what my heart was already feeling. We all hear that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, well, my take on that is that God didn't give me all this. I know that God is good all the time, and I am confident that all 4 of these very special people are now with God.
I never thought about death like I do now. When it was other people's death, it made sense. I don't know what else to say, except that I will forever believe in God and I know that he is looking after us through all of this. I just need to find a place to get started again. I have a beautiful family. I have my wonderful mother, 3 wonderful children, 4 grandsons, a large extended family, many friends throughout the country and you, my blogging friends. I love everyone so much and I pray for them all the time. I trust that they are in good hands with God looking after them and believe that God is going to show me how to get through my sadness, and keep on living. I have so neglected my blog and my blogging friends and and one of the ways I intend to find my "new normal" is by getting back to my sewing machine and my blog. Thanks for bearing with me as I poured my heart out to you and know that you were often in my thoughts during the last 6 months.